Another week wasted just like that...

Hmm.. .feel like blogging tonight but I don't know what to blog about..

So..what about telling you what I did/do during study week. Hehehe

1. Sleep late and woke up late daily.
2. Eat, eat and eat.
3. Play, play and play.
4. Chit-chat with friends; updating the latest gossips.
5. Day and night dreaming.
6. Counting how many days left to 8th Dec. (7 more days. YES!)
7. Finding myself in dilemma whether to study or sleep (oops! hahaha)

and the list goes on and on...

basically, that's what I did these few days!

I know, I know..i'm supposed to study but..... ~10 short stories, 2 dramas, and countless poems with their literary meanings really demotivate me! argh!!

ANd the story ends with M-E......







*pulling my hair*

Life is Good sometimes

Went outing today with friends.

Though it was unplanned, I enjoyed myself to the fullest because…

1) I got the chance to eat yummy stuff: Tom Yam Seafood Ramen and Tuna sandwich (wanted to proceed with so many other food… but Angel will start screaming and throwing her tantrum…hence, I held my thought till dinner hahaha :P)

2) I bought a lovely, adorable, cute, ladylike, “girly” dress at Comma.

3) Ate a luxurious dinner cooked by Angel, the “mother-in-law”.

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Hmm... one of my advanced 21st birthday wish is to eat lots and lots of delicious food everyday!! :P kekekekeke

SIMPLY DELICIOUS~~

At least my life is coloured with FOOD, FOOD and only FOOD!!!

muahahhahahahaa

Alienated

I feel so left out, so isolated when weekends come. Living in this "silent" unit is driving me crazy!! No family warmth, no talking, no communication, but only MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS! DAMN!! this is so cruel...

All this while, my life has never been easy here. Moving in and out for countless times when others remain in the same house for a long period of time. Why all the bad stuff always strikes on me?!

What have I done to deserve this "heavy punishment"?!!!

Friends.. ya I have them, but limited. I really hate myself for not making more friends. I realised that being not able to do things together makes a lot of difference. It creates boundaries and gaps and that's really really sad and heart-breaking.

Sometimes I really hate myself for being a BUG who keeps on bugging around them. If I have a choice, I rather choose not to put myself in this pathetic situation. Guys, if I had done anything that unconsciously offended you all, please forgive me ok? I'm still learning how to become a better person. And thanks a lot for being around me. Without you guys I think I will be six feet under ground for a long long time already.

It doesn't matter anymore as I hope I can get immunised by this "sickness"...

I really hope I can get away from here as soon as possible.. really wish time flies faster and fastest! Can't wait to get graduated and leave UT hell..

-Manyak TENSION la ini hari-

Arrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~

I feel so heavy-burdened these few days...

Not in the mood for blogging, not in the mood for studying, not in the mood for chatting, bla bla bla.. the only mood I have now is EATING, spending money, gaming, being a couch potato, exercising and also "homesicking" hahaha (feel so great nowadays that I can simply create my own words)

Tension is in the air la~~ really sien~ causing my mind to be blank all the time.

Now it's already week 7 leH~~ and tomorrow is Japanese oral test~ AH pU~~~~~~~~~~

Three alphabets in my mind -------------> D-I-E

I can feel my head spinning round and round...

Aiyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..............sien la...after week 7 it's gonna be study leave liao lo~~ seeing my housemates all so "eng" occupying the living room catching up with the drama episodes daily really torture me la.. sien~~

How I wish to fly back now~~ :(

But in order to fly back peacefully, I need to pass 2 subjects leh... both are equally hard!!
Japanese Language ---> Senseis very stirct!!
Malaysian Literature pulak ---> *sigh* thinking about it makes me SICK!! *vomit blood*

Hope I can come up with something that's interesting in my next blog lo.. :P

Till then... ADIOS~~~

Women's Right

What are women's right? (The mood of "A Father's Words for a Lost Child" is still in the air)

I felt burning inside me when I see these two powerful yet weak words.

I found it very contradicting...

Women know what women should be protected from but yet... the victims are still W-O-M-E-N in the end.

DAMN!!

Should we blame it on women for being too soft-hearted?

This is what I encounter after 20 years of experience...

Men:
1) They are always the one who wins the battle in almost everything.
2) They are cunning, insidious.
3) Love provoker.
4) Dangerous as in deceiving.
5) Look always comes first, heart? (Oh, I think they were already mesmerised by the looks.
So, it doesn't matter..as long as big enough, slim enough, eveything is negotiable)
6) Trouble-makers, heart-breakers.
7) Excuse-finder and good challenger.
8) You can never read their criminal mastermind.
9) Word keeper (ya right~~!! KOR....PUIK~~!)

Women:
1) Naive, weak, feeble, soft-hearted.
2) Easily fooled.
3) Insist to go on though it's obviously a boogy trap.
4) Easily cheated, easily melted.
5) Once provoked, no more mercy.
6) Scary at times.
7) It's heart that matters, look is optional.
8) Peace-lover.
9) Strong bond of sisterhood.


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"You were innocent.
He led you
to the kingdom of vultures.
He ruled the kingdom
ruled the forest
he ruled you."

-an excerpt from "A Father's Words for a Lost Child"
by Suhaimi Haji Muhammad

Elixir of life

原来放弃并不难，

主要的是你自己有没有助够的勇气来面对你所做的一切。。。

我终于不用过着那些心痛又不开心的日子了

哈哈哈。。。

Everyday is a new day.

Happy or not we still have to face it..

Why choose to be unhappy then?

HEhehehe

I wanna live happily and joyfully every single day!!! :P


がんばで Alice-san!! :)

Exhausted but Worth it!

Wow...

I'm totally exhausted today but I found myself enjoying my day-out with my lovely friends very much!!

A day out with a new friend had been "subarashi"!!

At least my time is not occupied by thinking and missing the trespasser.

It's marvelous that finally, I can start and end my day with only happy moments with sweet friends and not the trespasser's.

Phew~~ i'm really proud of myself that all the unhappy episodes have finally come to an end.

YEAPY!!!!!

Thanks to all my sweet, loving friends!! (Angel, Rapheal, Pei Xian and not forgetting, Aunty too!) Love you guys so much!! *hugs and kisses*

Finally my story ends with ......................................................