V thing

Well well well, if it is not something wrong with me laptop,

I wont be bloggin right now because my mood of doing my final year project had switched to blogging =.=''

Something about v*rus that I know nuts about it.

You dont know how phobic I am towards those stuffs. Even mentioning the v word will give me a feeling that I might get it right after I mention it! (yes, I am THAT phobea)

So, sebagai langkah keselamatan (cis, like writing my form 4 BM fact essays haha) I scan my pendrive with AVG and whaddaya know?

I caught this naughty fella, trojan horse generic 5 and I remembered PX told me once that she always vault those stuffs. So I vault-ed THG5. And panic-ed. I asked PX what are the do's and don'ts and hence followed strictly to her advice.

After vaulting it and scan through it again and again and again just to triple check and gazilion check that my pendrive is clean, I tried to looked for the file.

No threats found.

Files not found.

I told PX, "I think it's safe for now. Phew"

PX : Ya... but you have to beware. What trojan you got? If you got backdoor TH, that's a bit tedious.

Me : Ha? Trojan horse also has backdoor wan ar? I got THgenereic 5 ler.

PX : Ah.. I got that one too, but if got TH backdoor it will damage your firewall

Wait a minute~

I am very skeptical with the v thing.

Therefore, I would be super cautious and alert.

Thus, the word "damage your firewall" ??????????????????????????

damage???

DAMAGE???

DAMAGE????!!!!!!

Alright, computer noob like me needs help and is panic-ing now!

You know la!! the most helpless moment is when you know that v thing is so bitchy and you want to kill them so much but you cant do it because you dont know is equivalent to how I hate rapers and how I wish one day the punishment will be that all rapers are to be castrated if they are found guilty but you know that just wont happen??? That sort of feeling la!!

I wanna do something about it but I cannot do anything other than to vault it and seeing it everyday in the vault room!!! Like your friend is so upset cos his or her parent or relatives passed away and you cant do anything but to mourn together with him/her. That's how I feel right now la!!! T________T

How ar how ar???

Any expert out there? Teach teach a bit can?

Thinky Thinky

Been thinking a lot since I am back home.


After reading KS's entry on "How Do Couples Keep The 'Spark' Alive In Their Relationship?"

I am kinda "awake" as in not being ignorant in matters like this anymore. I used to ignore and think, "Nah, I don't need those things yet."

But now, "Bah (yesh Chrissy, am using ur famous word again haha), I better start thinking and choose which path I wanna go".

How do couples keep the spark alive in their relationship ya?

I wonder too.

Mum's like asking me a lot bout marriage since I am turning 22 real soon (that's an obvious hint for pressies too! MUAAHAHAHAHHAAHA).

Well you know, questions like...

1) Have you been thinking of getting married after you graduate?
2) Are you ready for marriage?
3) What do you think of marriage?
4) Etc Etc...

Something like those...

From the surface, I dont care much about 'marriage', but I have to admit, those questions are disturbias.

And when I let my thoughts run wild, I see fear and as a result I chicken-out.

No joke.

I would go like this.

My thought:

If my bf proposed to me one day, will I say yes on the spot and then began to reconsider my decision when I get back home? Or will I say no and rejected him, making things turn awful? Or will I say yes and regret right after? And the list goes on and on... I cant list all of the possibilities. There are so many of them!!

If yes, am I really ready for marriage? Am I willing enough to vow and give my true love to him for the rest of my life? Am I willing to (like the experienced said) step into the world of sufferings and bid freedom bye-bye?

And this is where I start to chicken-out.

Maybe too many divorce cases, too many family problems, too many child abuse cases freak me out effortlessly.

I told myself that if I wanna build a family, it's has to be a stable ones, no hesitation.

I am still touching my out in the dark so far.

I see no light in the dark tunnel.

Touching and rubbing my way out.

Thinking about the future is scary sometimes because I am so afraid to end up lonely.

Contradictingly, I dont wanna give up my dreams. I still wanna fulfill my dreams... Bah~ (again, Chrissy, I know). This is it ladies, when you reach ages like these, you are at the most critical point... this is where your sacrifice counts!

And I just realised how lack of self-understanding I am!! And this is crucial for my future.

Because I will be graduating next semester and every decision I make will affect my LIFE! And I can never turn back time if what I have decided is already done.

Scary T_T

Now I know what is the real meaning of the big word- R-E-S-P-O-N-S-I-B-I-L-T-Y!!!

Shoulders are feeling the burdens already.

No wonder I get sore-shoulders so easily lately and would demand Chrissy to send me e-choppys and e-massages! Eh, shreky?